I’m so tired.

I’m so tired of Donald Trump. For four years I’ve worried about what he was doing to the country and to the world. For several months prior to election day in 2016, I worried about what would happen if the unthinkable came true and he actually won the election. For the past year, I’ve worried about kicking him out of office on November 3. And now, two weeks after he was declared the loser, without a concession, and with the peaceful transition of power in doubt, I’m still worrying about what he might do next.

I’m tired of Donald Trump. I’m tired of his evil, his hate, his pettiness, his ignorance, his coiffed and plastic look. I’m tired of what he says and how he says it. I’m tired of him using the power of the presidency to further his personal agenda of self-aggrandizement and financial gain. I’m tired of him degrading others and showing no appreciation for anyone who doesn’t show loyalty to him. I’m tired of him pretending to be an expert in things he knows nothing about. I’m tired of him turning his back on this country and using 328 million Americans as pawns in his little game of power grab. I’m tired of him sacrificing 11 million citizens to the impact of COVID-19 and showing no remorse for the quarter million lives lost when it’s obvious he not only didn’t do enough to stop the pandemic but actually made things worse.

I’m tired of Trump’s lack of humility, his incessant blame game, and his inability to accept responsibility when something goes wrong, as if it’s a sign of weakness to learn from the past and aim higher in the future. I’m tired of Trump pitting us against each other instead of uniting us, especially after an emotionally-charged election. I’m tired of him attacking the media and of him playing golf at our expense while nothing gets done and people suffer. I’m tired of his moral bankruptcy, his smugness, his misogyny, and the hypocrisy of how he behaves today versus how he criticized Obama and others in the past. I’m tired of his transactional approach to American diplomacy, his ability to change USA from a beacon of hope to a bastion of buffoonery, his admiration of ugly if not criminal behavior, his disdain and mistreatment of foreigners, his crass and rude demeanor, his lack of wit, laughter, and love, and his pathological lack of empathy and compassion.

I’m tired of Trump’s lies and conspiracy theories, his scatterbrain English, his third-grade vocabulary, his juvenile tweets and impulsive retweets, his utter lack of decorum and disregard for best practices, and the way he mocks not only the office of the president but the democratic norms upon which our country was founded. I’m tired of waiting for his taxes. I’m tired of his malignant narcissistic personality disorder and how both his administration and the news media have made the past four years all about him.

I’m tired of people making excuses for Donald Trump, for emboldening him to continue acting like a spoiled child and enabling him to break the rules. I’m tired of those who coddle him, who want to give him extra time to do the right thing, as if making excuses for an emotionally-challenged adolescent suffering from uncontrollable hormonal impulses. I’m tired of those who deny that Trump is a racist or can’t make that obvious conclusion after acknowledging his racist acts and comments. Ditto for Trump as anti-gay, anti-LGBTQ, anti-women, anti-Hispanic, anti-Muslim, anti-Asian, anti-xxx.

I’m tired of trying to understand the 70 million Americans who either couldn’t see how unscrupulous and dangerous Trump is or preferred this wretched specimen of a human being to a decent alternative. I’m tired of evangelical Christians believing Trump is some sort of biblical savior, and of the image of Trump holding a bible in front of St. John’s church after ordering the forceful removal of peaceful protestors. I’m tired of those who still think Trump is a business genius despite all his documented failures before and during his presidency. I’m tired of Trump having the inherited power to fail at countless undertakings with impunity when so many less privileged but more deserving people never even get the chance to try. I’m also tired of those who still think running a country is like running a business. It is not. Somehow we’ve allowed politics and public service to connote inefficacy and corruption when, as this failed experiment has shown, the opposite is true. Hire a ruthless businessman to govern and you invite the extremes of capitalistic society to run amuck.

I’m tired of Trump, his trophy wife, his brash sons, his daddy daughter advisor, his so-called brilliant son-in-law, his polished press secretary from central casting wearing a cross to conceal her literal role as devil’s advocate, his wacky attorney spouting falsehoods, his abomination of an attorney general, his secretary of state who audaciously claims we’ll be transitioning to a second Trump term, and his epically incompetent, corrupt, and dysfunctional cabinet. I’m tired of thinking of the White House as a COVID hot spot. I’m tired of Betsy DeVoss and the absurdity of her leading the nation’s educational system. I’m tired of sycophant Mike Pence’s caricatural pretense as an all-knowing authority, his condescension, and his mansplaining. I’m tired of Moscow Mitch and how he and other republicans have supported Trump and turned a blind eye to the most egregious misbehavior in the Oval Office in our nation’s history. I’m tired of Trump’s $70,000 hairstyle, his fake orange skin, the lines below his eyes from sunlamp goggles, and the poorly-tailored million dollar suits hiding his fast food physique.

I’m tired of Donald Trump’s disproportionate wealth, privilege, and special treatment. I’m tired of his unhealthy lifestyle — poor diet, lack of exercise, intellectual depravity — not having the same consequences as for others. After waging war on face masks to prevent COVID-19, Trump received the best medical care in the world to ‘cure’ him in record time. I’m tired of him being above the law even though we always say nobody is. Trump has sexually assaulted at least two dozen women, committed tax fraud for years worth millions of dollars, impoverished scores of individuals and businesses who threatened his empire, violated campaign financing laws, sought to tamper with two elections in ways that many considered treasonous, obstructed justice, conspired with murderous dictators, ruined the lives of immigrants and children he caged, and — with his ignorant if not deliberate mishandling of the coronavirus pandemic, caused the death of 10s of 1,000s of citizens he was sworn to protect. May his karma take hold in what I hope will be a successful legal assault to convict and imprison him as soon as he leaves office.

I am tired of being tired of Donald Trump and everything associated with him. I cannot wait for him to be over. Maybe at that point, I’ll be able to cleanse my soul and be well rested again.